is there too much to deal with?

do I have too much to deal with?


I don't know what to do


I am a narcissist and psychopath magnet. I got diagnosed with a life threatening veryt painful illness when I was young like 7 years ago. have been battling that for years and I am yelling in pain almost every day. it is debilitating


and due to the illness I also got encephalitis and dementia because of complications, the infection traveled everywhere. I cant get medical treatment because I have nowhere to live

I'm staying in a room the last 6 yrs , bathroom has sink and toilet only. I used to sign up at a gym years ago just to go there to use a shower.

I cant do that these days I'm older and weak

I lost my social abilities

I have scabs that leak deadly bacteria. so if I wash clothes the bacteria dosnt go out I have to throw away the clothes because it is toxic

so I cannot look nice and I am a female I can only wear cheap sweatpants tee shirt, sweater. but whatever is directly on the infection is thrown out

I can only wear antimicrobial shoes. and they are worn at all times

I became targeted by electronic weapons after this and everything I say and do at home is watched and liastened to by these psychopaths

I am stalked. I think people are posting threats to me on other message boards but they are typing cryptic word salad. so I cannot tell

I was told by some lady that someone is after me, because their husband likes me

I was told I did things I did not do. I do not even go near people

I think they are saying I had sex with someone

but I am an asexual and never kissed anyone ever even.

I was told the lady of the guy who likes me and stalks me is trying to harm me for years and I get all these threats

I cant focus on my recovery

I know they are picking on me because I'm sick from a life threatening illness

I am disabled from it

I think the conclusion is it is a sadistic predator game by a psychopath trying to destroy a vulnerable girl

the wife goes along with the delusion and is out to get me and is projecting everything on to me and blaming me for everything

so they need me to focus on them instead of my recovery

I keep getting messages saying I had sex with people but I never did so I don't know what the rumors are

I have no friends because I'm sick. I lost everything to the disease I got from my parents

my parents are abusive and narcissists and do not care about anything that happens

I have no one to help me sofar

I'm spied on every day, I have an embarrassing disease that makes me act bipolar so every humiliating thing I say at home is twisted around to fit the fantasy of the people who stalk me and have a crush on me

sofar I'm being accused of being a straight sexually active psychopath by the creep. and I do not like that. it is upsetting

I am instead a huge empath,not straight , I am asexual and never been attracted to men

I do not understand the bullying,i need to focus on my recovery.

there has been violence done to me, they are hitting me with weapons. so I cant focus on myself they want me instead to wonder who is hitting me , and try to find out the games and who

I do not understand straight or gay people and their relationship things

but I don't want to deal with that

I don't know why I'm hit with weapons. it makes things more difficult for me


I was told the reason bad things are done to me is because I'm sexually active and trying to take some ladies husband.

which I don't understand. it sounds like projection.

I don't know what I should do, I wish they would stop harming me or tell me what the heck is wrong, there is no dialogue with these psychos, no trial either

and they invent things in their mind they twist around